I finally finished putting together your special resting place. I'm sorry it took so long, I just had to make sure it was perfect. I light a candle for you every night before I go to sleep. It helps me to feel like you're here with me. I have been having a really rough couple of weeks, I can't believe we're about to come up on one year...yet at the same time it feels like decades ago that we lost you. I never thought my broken heart could survive this long. Honestly, I'm not sure how I have...I seem to be having more bad days than good. It's true when they say that grief is a roller coaster. My emotions are all over the place all the time and I still burst into tears at the sudden mention of your name.
Your dad will be home in a little over a month and I know he's the one that will help heal my broken heart. It's been so difficult to grieve for you when I'm alone. The only person who understands my pain is on the other side of the world...
I can't even begin to explain how badly I wish you were here, laying on my lap as I write this. I would give anything to feel you one more time...
I love you and miss you more than I ever thought possible.
Visit me in a dream soon, I would love nothing more than to see your precious face again.
Until next time,